I’m in serious pain, yo.
I did something to my hamstring and possibly my sciatic nerve that’s got me in tears. I can’t walk very well at the moment, so I’m just hobbling around my house and only going out when I have to (like my run to the grocery store yesterday). I’m trying to rest, elevate and all the other stuff I’m supposed to in order to help an injury heal.
This isn’t easy. I WANT to get on the treadmill and train. I’m serious. I don’t like this sitting-around-doing-nothing crap. I know I can cross-train by doing other stuff like riding my bike, but first I want a doctor to take a look at this so I know exactly what I am dealing with.
One of the coaches emailed me some info about a chiropractor/sports medicine practice in Chandler. She says people from Team In Training use this place all the time, and they give us 20% off the price, too, just for being in TNT. They open at 8:30 tomorrow, and I’ll be calling very shortly after that to get in as soon as I can. I’m anxious as hell to get some help for this and to get a professional’s opinion regarding what I can do to cross-train, how to do it and when I can start. I don’t want to make anything worse by pushing myself at the moment, because that’s how I got into this mess in the first place.
I used a couple of painkillers left over from last spring when I busted my wrist and tailbone, and they seemed to still be potent enough to do the trick so I can sleep. I absolutely can’t find a comfortable position, especially when lying down. And oddly, when I lift my right leg (which isn’t injured), a shooting, sharp pain goes into my left hamstring. It’s pretty intense on the pain scale. I have to do something about this, because I can’t stand it for much longer. Now my left heel is hurting, which again is an indication that my sciatic nerve is involved in all this mayhem. Grrrr.
By the way, I didn’t drop off the team, in case it’s not already obvious. I’m going to keep doing what I can do and follow whatever instructions I get from the doctor. I sent out a batch of letters to support my fundraising on Saturday, and I’m still committed to reaching my goal. One thing I am considering is doing the half-marathon instead of the full. For my first time in an endurance event–and especially one in a place as hilly as San Francisco– doing half seems a hell of a lot more realistic and smart. After that, I can work up to a full marathon.
This injury is NOT going to sidetrack me and my goal. I like working out again, for the first time in a long time. I’m not quitting. NO WAY. Even if I have to take a couple of weeks off from training (oh dear God, I hope not!) I’m not stopping. I’m not going through all this pain for nothing. I refuse to have this get the best of me! Sure, it hurts like a mofo right now, but I’m a woman. We have higher pain tolerance than men! Women can take a lot of shit and keep on going where weaker people would flounder and hide. So yeah, I can take it!