Well, I got knocked on my ass yesterday with a serious case of “throwing up like crazy.” It started around 3, 4 in the morning and I wasn’t successful keeping food down until about 6:00pm or something like that. It was a long, slow, painful day. I barely moved. It sucked, to say the very least.
So I missed my scheduled workout, obviously.
I got up today and felt optimistic. I had half a banana and kept it down. I decided to try a workout. I got on the treadmill but my energy was just pathetic. I walked for about 15 minutes before I just crashed. It really sucked.
I’m nervous about tomorrow, because it’s another training sessi0n in the park at 5:30am. If I had been running yesterday and today, maybe I’d feel a little more confident in my ability to be out there with the team, but I’m not so sure right now. I wish I didn’t hate the team practice sessions so much. What’s the matter with me? I just don’t enjoy being out there, trying to even half-keep-up with the rest of them. And I have noticed something, for sure: I do worse with my breathing outside, and I wonder if it has to do with air quality. I say this because on Tuesday it was a pollution advisory, and now we have had one all week, each day. I need to look into what I can do to handle that. Not sure I want to run wearing a mask or something.
I’m sorry, I just had to vent. I feel really down today. I wish I felt better, too. I’m just weak and exhausted. I’m invited to a birthday lunch today for my friend, at an Italian place, and I’m not sure I can do it. That’s how I know I’m not myself: usually, I am unable to stay away from Italian food.
Oh, there’s something else about the running that I wanted to mention, too. I have been reading a LOT about running and apparently, if you are a complete beginner to running, it can be better to train for 6 months on your own, gradual pace… still using a schedule, still working in interval training and everything… and THEN signing up for a training program for a specific marathon.
It could just be how I feel today, but I’m thinking about this and wondering if it has some merit. I mean, I am REALLY struggling out there. I do better indoors, on the treadmill, but outside is so hard. I wish I had more time to get closer to running for 5 miles, but a week from tomorrow is the 5 mile run at South Mountain already.
I don’t know how I will survive it, at this point. Can I go from my 2.5 mile maximum (and I don’t run the whole thing, either. I walk for 1-2 minutes throughout) to 5 miles in a week’s time? And do it outside? On a mountain?! I think I will need an oxygen tank.
There’s just a chance I’m getting in a little over my head.
I wonder if I can switch to a later marathon. They just announced the winter schedule, and there is the PF Chang Rock and Roll marathon here in Phoenix in January, and then a marathon at DisneyWorld at the end of January. Both are full or half marathons. I’m thinking they might be more realistic for me, too, because the courses are a heck of a lot flatter than San Francisco. (That’s why we are having so many mountain training sessions… to prepare us for the hills.)
I’m not making any decisions right now. I’m just beginning to wonder if I really could be taking on more than my body can realistically chew right out of the gate. Because let’s face it: I was a couch potato before this. I wasn’t exercising at all except to walk the dog at night. And now, for the past three weeks, I’ve been walking/jogging/running 3-4 times a week, constantly trying to one-up my previous workout so I can get to the goal on time. My left hamstring is constantly sore this week, but I was still working out on it at the interval training on Tuesday. The gasping for air thing is scary, too.
Of course, I am already three weeks in. Monday will be the 4-week mark already. Maybe I am doing fine, really, and I should keep going. Keep pushing it. That’s how you get stronger, and build up endurance, right? This is likely just a little slump, and it doesn’t help that I am dealing with a stomach virus or whatever this is on top of it.
So I don’t know what to do.